That song is cliché.
Hello Philippines and hello world! [also a cliché]
♪♫♬ ♩ Balang araw magugulat ka… Magugulat kaaaa…
Ako’y babalik aking mahal, sana’y di mainip… sanaaaAAAA! ♪♫♬ ♩ [Callalily - Ako'y Babalik]
Akalain mong naka-five years na ang aming relasyon ni wordpress?!
Salamat doon po sa amin (should I call you Ate San?) for keeping posted. Yes, I’m reviving this blog again, hihi Here’s the story of how I almost cried getting this blog back…
Drama mode. Pls refer to Kwentong I’d Like To Do This Someday. I did mention that I’ve grown out of my love for this blog. Feeling ko ang babaw. Feeling ko it’s not me anymore. So I said GOODBYE. One stupid mistake that will lead to many more, but I didn’t know it at that time.
I left. Inabandona ko ang aking email address connected with this blog and user account. Speaking of email addresses, andami ko palang kalat sa world wide web. Sampu siguro ang registered email addresses ko. 20 na blogs. WTF?!
Alam mo yung blog-hopping? Eto ba yon? I hopped from one blog to another in the hope of finding my ‘spark’. And recently I created wtfakda. I hadn’t written anything for so long a time and it felt stupid. Then I looked at my hmoepage. There it was, staring at me right in the face… WTFakda?! Parang sinisigawan nya akong “HUY, ANYARE?!” Anong ginagawa mo dito? Nagmadali akong bisitahin ang kwentuhan ko. I was laughing and crying in alternate and controlled manner (that is, in my mind because I was at the office and I don’t want people thinking that I’ve lost it). Tapos nakita ko kung bakit ako bumalik. Nakita ko kung anong meron sa kwentuhan.
Mga alaala ng aking kalayaan. I am a lost soul but here I have my own voice. Resoundingly beautiful. Same reason I never deleted Likhang-Isip even though I stopped writing literary pieces ages ago. These are memories. Footsteps and graffiti of where I’ve been, shouting “AKDA WAS HERE”
I felt overwhelmed and emotional while reading how stupid I was and how my life probably sucked big time. Yon na ang panahon na nag-log out ako. At panahon para subukang mag-log in muli…
No worries. Everything is under fuckin’ control. Calm down. It’s just a minor bump. You just forgot every log in detail for kwentuhan. Dang it. YOU JUST FORGOT EVERY FUCKIN’ DETAIL OF YOUR ACCOUNT?!?! What the hell is the matter with you?
I was about to give up and contact support but I’m not sure I’d be able to prove my ownership of this blog because I was too damn busy being stupid and forgetting details. I’ve forgotten draft titles, damn it! I tried again and hoped that the sun will wipe away the tears forming in the corner of my eye as a result of a mixture of anger, frustration, self-destructive forces, and sleepiness.
**Insert 3 days and 2 nights (naks, parang weekend getaway lang!) of struggling and almost crying trial and error**
Matapos kong mapagod sa pag-log in sa uber dami kong email accounts (yes, unstable right there). I finally logged in to the email address associated with my goakda [again, thank you to doon po sa amin for pursuing to visit my second attempt at blogging]. Then gmail notification popped up saying, “in case you forget your password, you dumbo, we will email your log in details to *****@imanemail.com”. Right then and there, it clicked. That was the email address I was looking for. Ninja-speed Ctrl + Shift + N and tried it out.
In my mind I was going like this…
I’m not sure if this a good thing or a bad thing. I’m not sure I care either. My senses are telling me I should do this because this makes me feel happy.
Good night WordPress fellas! See ya ’round!
Wala sa ayos to, I know. I’ll be there when the right time comes.